Lunch Break

Who is this person and why isn't she dressed in her husband's gym clothes or pajamas?  Yep, I managed to wear real clothes and out of my husband's pajamas on Saturday and I felt incredibly guilty for it.  My mother-in-law watched Lucas for me and my husband on Saturday so that we could go out for lunch and basically get me out of the house.  It is ridiculous how emotional I get thinking about being apart from my baby.  I've only been away from him two times and for only an hour each time.  The first time I left the house, I cried.  And you would have thought I was going on vacation for how much I cried.  We literally went to eat ONE mile down from our home and at a restaurant that is in our neighborhood.  I cried nonetheless.  Don't even get me started on thinking about going back to work.  I cry at least once a day thinking about it.  Thankfully, I will be working from home one day  out of the week and my husband a different day then the days we're both at the office, my mom will be watching him.  I'm so blessed that my mom has offered to watch Lucas.  I know he will be in great hands and when he gets older, he'll be eating all her great Puerto Rican cooking that I grew up on.

Despite feeling guilty about going out to eat lunch, it eventually felt good to be outside and in real clothes.  Later this week, I made an appointment to use the spa gift card my husband gave me for our anniversary.  I'll be gone for two hours and will need to mentally prepare myself starting now.  I know...I'm going to the spa  not the dentist's office but not even the spa tops spending time with my little guy.  Motherhood is a crazy thing...an amazingly crazy thing.

Sweater: Ann Taylor  /  Dress: H&M  /  Shoes: Target  /  Jewelry: Ebay, Alex and Ani, David Yurman